Dec 10, 2008

Thank you, God!

Hello God,

If you happen to stumble upon this post, an event for which I believe the probability is 0.00000000009999 since its titled and labelled with you, so that means you 'will stumble upon' my post, I want to let you know quite a few things. Not that I fear you or expect any favors for entry to heaven, but nevertheless, you need to know what Vin really thought about you and thinks about you, albeit you seldom do much in keeping with her wishes. Still...

Let me refresh your memory, in case you rely on such human tools. I belong to a wonderful set of 'family', for starters we are a group of 'self-styled combat warriors', the only pinch is of the uniquely distinct styles each one of us possess. So, lets not talk about how the family chariot moves on with all the wheels pointing in the ten directions, so anchored as a rock, just as you! So, now you know who I am. Lets proceed further..

When I was little, my mom said 'God is watching all our actions and will punish us for our lies'. I thought 'Let me not take a chance... I never lied'. Meantime, all my elder siblings lied and went scott-free from mom's cane, whereas me would be decorated with long red bumps. I wondered then, 'Why is God not punishing them?'. Gradually, the questions increased, every time i joined my hands in prayer at the small temple at home, I saw an image of you smiling away to glory. I didnt know it then, the reason for your smile, but maybe now I do! Nevertheless, I trusted you and prayed to you and begged you for a new set of crayons, a new drawing book, a new story book, a new dress, a new shoe... more quality time with my 'ever so busy' dad! But, you only smiled! Some answer to a little toddler's prayer!

The toddler grew up, the prayers continued but you only smiled! I prayed, i stuggled, i worked hard to make both ends meet, while you were smiling your glorious smile! They say 'God alone knows', so maybe you do know, when exactly i stopped praying or rather my style of praying. Maybe, you felt bad, because you stopped smiling at the temple. But, you know what, I had begun to worship people. They were the ones running this 'loka', they were the real heroes, each one of them striving towards achieving their desires, while joining forces to achieve collective desires. We, the people were running the show!

But with two elder brothers living the spiritual life and me living the 'doubtful' life, a debate was inevitable. I was lectured about your cosmic laws and stuff. I failed miserably in the debate followed with the toughest questions, 'Why are the successful people, always the ones who believe in themselves, believe in the power within?', 'Why some things never shape the way you want?', 'Why some street urchins go on to become major contributors to society?, etc, etc. You must have heard it in my home, if you had happened to tune in, what with my entire neighbourhood tuned in! Then, I realised who is the real hero..who is the script writer... who is the pupeteer..who is calling all the shots ??? Then I realised why you only smiled your glorious smile.

So, here I am at your doorstep, with hands joined humbly, Please forgive me, God. I will never stop praying again. I have a lot to thank for, yes, i really do. You saved me from evil, you carried me through my disbelief, you tolerated my anger, you even sent me friends who did the same! You opened a door when all others were shut on me. You are a tough coach but now i know why! So, Thank you, God and trust me there's no sarcasm here!

Yours Gratefully,


Scattered Thoughts... said...

vin - loved the post.. wonderful words.. not sure if you have read that story or not but for those who have not, here it goes.. (you see the company of sen the raconteur)
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”

The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.

god bless you gurl!!

Vin said...

thanks, ST..this is the famous 'footprints' story!! Thanks for putting it here:)

Scattered Thoughts... said...

yeah.. the 'famous' story for the blog of 'famous' people :))

Senorita said...

@ Vin...good one...I know where this came only hope and prayer is I also see it end where I really want it to...

@ ST...this is my favourite story...whenever I feel down, I always imagine god carrying me in his arms :))

sawan said...

vins, ST, why do I have a sense that lots of spiritual talks are gona follow?
vins, good post dear.. m sure God would have been impressed :)
Sen, u also imagine God carrying you? Everybody is so spiritual out here!

Vinnie said...

Sen, thank u!!

Sawan saar..imagining God carrying u is the best strength possible..

Lancelot said...

God bless you BOO BOO :P

Vinnie said...

eh hulloo...yenna...u maybe 8 packs...but virtually u can't break a single bone in me, ok va???

na threat marandh poiccha ya??'t...neraya vishayam roomba mosavana..

soon, u will be 'boo hoo boo hoo'

Lancelot said...

GOD BLESS YOU- I just said three words to bless you nothing else and the key to type P is not working in my computer thats why it becames B :P...anyways try hard to break me ;)...(Remember 8 packs- )

Vinnie said...

for all i know, ur 8 packs r some 8 packets of Parle G glucose biscuits, u must be keeping with u as all kids r used to!!

now only p/P isnt working while typing Pooh, soon ur system will explode :)

ennaku Captain Vijaykant mathiri virtual war panna teriyum, ok va?

n yes, God will Bless me..the race for first comment in Karthik's space is on..i'm game

Lancelot said...


Vinnie said...


jus kidding..u take that spot!

Lancelot said...

antha bayam irukkatum he he

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